Hi, long time no see.

Hi. Sorry to all you loyal readers out there. I've been busy and nearly failing. 

Let me explain.

A few months ago, I received a scholarship for engineering. I have been busy since then. In my recent semester, I took Calculus I, Physics I, programming, AutoCAD and Chemistry. Due to being a architecture student first, I always knew I was disadvantaged when it came to my course work. After an semi-eventful summer, I was not ready for these courses. 

At first, I thought I could bounce back after I was deemed below average. I thought I could work hard. Well, I did work hard. Just in the wrong way. I had focused too much on working, not really studying. I had applied to a political internship program (which involved 3-4 shifts a week, which was 3 hours each) in the first half of the semester. Second half of the semester, I was so exhausted because of the first half. I just gave up at that point. In the end, the internship was not worth it. I entered another internship, and... they fired me within one month. When it was finals. 

In engineering, most professors suck at teaching material. For physics, that was my professor. Instead of teaching material thoroughly and having notes to review from, he would just show us the textbook on a projector. But every so often, there is one professor that helps understand the subject. For me, it was only my AutoCAD professor. He really pushed me to succeed. I ended physics with a D, while AutoCAD was a B-. "Why didn't you change classes?" You might have asked yourself.  My school has a policy where if you don't drop/add a class in the first 2 weeks, your schedule is set in stone. For the first 2 weeks, nothing happened. Then he started material.

Calculus and Chemistry were another problem. My math skills are not strong, yet not weak. At least that was what I believed before Calculus and Chemistry. That was difficult, given I didn't have time to care nor study for it. My Calculus professor was a little slow when teaching me, which is a pace I'm not used to. My Chemistry professor tried to help, but how much could he do?

I really thought I could have handled it. I couldn't. I cried a lot last semester, knowing I let all of you down. Knowing I let myself and my family down.

As of this semester, I am taking physics again, this time with a different professor. I am also taking Energy Policy, Behavioral Science, Communication, and Physics Lab. I will keep you all updated. Thanks for understanding.